Went up to NJ a few weeks back and Black Knight and I actually hooked up for a night out…it was funny that I had to wait on Black Knight and not Black Knight waiting on me…see through all that I’ve been through the past few months I had decided to change some personal traits about me that were not so becoming…being punctual was one of them…
I went on what you could say was my first official “date” with someone new recently…Oh what a time we had together….we laughed, and danced, and talked, and had drinks (but not to get drunk…something that was quite the norm in the past)…I’ll call her Mirage…yeah because she didn’t seem real…smile…She’s local, smart, strong, funny, pretty and she can SING her cute little butt off.
The dance that we are dancing has been filled with truths and nothing more…she knows what I am going through right now and is respectful of that…Mirage has admitted that she is envious of Memphis Wifey and understands why she wants to keep things in tack. I blushed of course, and told her thank you!!
Over some guacamole and chips at Rosa Mexicano at National Harbor she leaned in and said to me “Black Hawk I can’t fall for you, but damn it would be hard not to” I understood where she was coming from….see Mirage gets what and where I am at right now….Yet I am unable to give anything of substance to anyone right now…
See Black Hawk and Memphis Wifey are still working through there issues and who knows what will become of that…I have spent day after day moving her into her new spot and it’s quite nice, but the key word is “her” spot not “our” spot and it feels strange but it is so…
Mirage and I have been spending a good deal of time together…She has told me that she can be a friend to me and when things are right between me and Memphis Wifey (either good or bad) she would like to still be in my life…either as a good friend or something more…I won’t say much more about her and I right now because she and I are just good right now…but whoa what the possibilities could be!!! (See Black Erotica - A day of Romance...it was written for her by request...lol)
Was out a few days ago chilling round my new area of town…see funds are limited now and so I need to keep track of what and how I do things…henceforth I decided to chill out solo bolo at this spot called “My Place”…use to go there with someone else in another time and place…but now it’s my spot again for me…Black Hawk was just chilling at the bar listening to my IPod (love that thing up to 316 songs) when a group of ladies started in on me…
Now I wasn’t looking for any real convo that night so when the first one of them chimed in asking questions like “What are you listening to” or “Are you here alone” and of course “Why are you here alone”…before I knew it I had become part of that group…I can tell that I am slowly getting my swerve back in me…LOL
There was one Diva in particular from this Diva Squad that kept paying particular attention to me…I will call her Dreads (for the lovely locks that she wore so well)…we started engaging in a fanciful flirtatious discussion that I knew could go nowhere…but it was fun seeing if I still could…lol
As the night wore on and the Diva Squad slowly lost its members I found that Dreads was not trying to disperse from this place…So when the doors were finally ready to close I wasn’t surprised when it was just the two of us left in there…Dreads asked me to walk her to her car (which I would have done anyway as a gentleman)…while she was walking I saw her playing in her locks and then (her being slightly in-front of me) she turned slowly at me…My My My she planned that well for with her hair down and out of the pony tail she wore her locks in Dreads looked stunning with her piercing hazel eyes on her smooth light mocha skin tone…
See this was the set-up…I saw it coming and wanted to see how this would play out so I continued with the dance…
I had noticed earlier in the night how Dreads always kept her lips looking luscious all the time…after each meal or drink she would take out her weapons of choice and by the time the battle was over she would have two of the prettiest well done lips in the place…I must say that impressed Black Hawk as I Love a nice pair of lips on a lady…
So when she turned and looked at me with her locks hanging and her lips all done up with the glare of the parking lights twinkling in her eyes she almost had me…but I recovered and opened her door…now I should have just closed the door and said have a nice evening and been gone…but she was moving along to this dance to a well formed choreography…smile
So that I couldn’t close the door she left a foot hanging out the car preventing me from doing what she knew I would do…instead she proceeded to talk some more…I noticed the sweet smell that came from her nicely kept vehicle…Dreads proceeded to play her music and I soon discovered that she kept an arsenal of CD’s in her car…this captured me for Black Hawk loves slow jams and that’s what she had…By the end of the dance I would have secured 5 cd’s from her…lol
As I leaned into the car to listen to the sounds (as I did not want to go and sit on the pax side…danger…danger) I could feel her lean into me and smell me…now Black Hawk has a rule about smelling…grown folks should never stink…smile…So when Dreads told me “Damn you smell so good”, I was pleased but I thought to myself “Shouldn’t I”…
I could feel the heat from her body jumping off of her as I listened attentively to the music on her radio…I consciously kept my head looking forward, for if I turned it toward her then our lips would surely meet…Well this plan of action proved to be ill conceived…for Dreads had a plan of her own as she leaned forward and kissed my cheek…
DAMN…DAMN…DAMN…why did she have to go and do that!!! See if Black Hawk had been getting some loving lately a cheek kiss would have been nothing…but feeling those lips on my cheek sent explosions through me and so I turned and for what seemed like a eternity our lips met and did a slow dance…As I pulled away something strange happened to me…I did not want to go back…I saw pictures flying through my head of what was now a distant memory and Memphis Wifey and all that I was and had become over the past few weeks/months and said STOP!!
Dreads tried complementing me on my kiss and how soft Black Hawk’s lips were and so forth…I said thanks but see this I can not do and then I laid down the reasons why…Dreads was ok with that and appreciated me telling her my story (although it was brief and to the point)…she asked if we could be friends and I said of course we can and I would love to hang out again with The Diva Squad for they were all cool.
I closed the car door and told her to drive safely home…Now Dreads owns a townhouse in DC (the really nice part of DC I must say) so I told her to call me once she got home…She said ok, and blew me a kiss goodbye and pulled away…
It was strange a few days after that incident I was hanging with my boy MD Finest…we were just rapping when he indicated that he can tell that I’m walking better now…See me being naïve to something’s thought he was talking about how I was moving around better on my surgically repaired knee…silly me!!
MD Finest said “No man I ain’t talking about that” but I see your walking better in your faith…I told him yeah without going into how it’s been testing me here and there, but I have been truly doing just that…
Black Hawk looks forward to attending church once again and sits there taking notes and listening to the sermon and trying to apply it to my life in some way…
Many other things have been going on in my life lately but if I tried to get it all down this post would be way to long…smile…I know I’m feeling better and better each day…OH yes, MY KIDS ARE BACK and they said they LOVE and missed ME!!!!!
Enough Said….
Kids - miracles they are...the only people in our lives that USUALLY love us unconditionally :-)
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