Up In My Spot

Well it was bound to happen sooner or later, although I was really hoping that it wouldn’t happen here. See Native American and I finally ran into one another at a public spot. Yes, it was a very uncomfortable situation; but something that I needed to happen in order to move forward.

See lately Black Hawk has been trying to be stealth in his movements. I was trying to be very calculating in when, where, and who I would go out with. In order to streamline this I basically stayed in so that I could ensure that nothing like this would happen.

See Black Hawk sort of figured that Native American would be leaving my area around this time, since it’s almost been 1 month since her little scene. Her roommate told me she had given notice and that she was moving back to NYC and notice requires 30 days.

Since that time I have contemplated a move to Mom’s house in NJ, which she would let me, after talking some more with her she did not see that as a solution. See, my Mom is one of the strongest and smartest women that I know. She sat me down and basically said that she didn’t raise me to run home when I face the hardships of the world. Be the man that I know you can be and face your trials and tribulations head on. Yes, you can always come home to mommy, but in the end you’re only hurting yourself.

Shit after listening to Mom break it down to me I couldn’t go home. I must say I was really looking forward to going home and having her safety net, but I knew she was right so I nixed that. I felt sort of bad because I had already informed Native American’s Dad that I would be relocating back to NJ. See he needs to ship my Golf Clubs to me since I left them in California during our last trip there. I must say that 30 days ago this little story would not have bothered me, but in my post-Native American days I am striving to keep things truthful and accurate. I must say at the time that I informed him of this move it was accurate, but I should have called him back to update him.

But back to my story…..

Besides a trip of to NJ to be with my family, a night out with my boy Black Knight and his cousins for their family reunion, a nigh out to dinner with my family during my daughters b-day along with MD Finest and his children, and golf outing with MD Finest….Black Hawk has basically been in the house!! I purposely avoid places that Native American and I have frequented out of fear of running into her (DAMN this is my town).

Well, yesterday I needed to do something, anything just to get out…after my long road trip to NYC and back I slept for more then half the day. Once I got up I forced myself to get out of the bed and run to the bank and go by my new spot that I will be moving into next week. I saw that it was a beautiful day and when I called my boy Black Knight I was shocked to find that he was still in town. See I thought he was back in NJ already.

Well once I saw this I decided that Black Knight his lady K-Love and I would hang out tonight. I know that Black Knight likes Jazz music so I went to one of my spots that I know does Jazz to see what time things would kick off and check to make sure there was no cover or dress code. I checked several spots at the CAP Ctr Blvd and decided that we were going to go to Side Lines (Former NFL Player Lavar Arrington’s spot). I then contacted Black Knight to coordinate everything for the evening he asked me what time I would be up that way and I told him 8 – 8:30’ish.

Black Knight then went and ran his errands and grab a bite to eat. Since I had finished early I headed back home to change since I gotten all sweaty and shit. While home I decided to get in touch with one of my lady “FRIENDS” Gallo Wine to see how her sick sister was doing. Gallo Wine and I ended up talking for sometime, catching up on things since she is another one of the friends that Black Hawk cut off while dealing with Native American.

I felt silly telling her my story for once again a friend chastised me for not seeing the signs of a confused soul early on. But she also noted that I was not completely without fault in this thing and chastised me for it. She was happy that I was getting out and we ended our conversation with well wishes.

Black Hawk was running late now and I know how Black Knight can be when I’m late, so I hurried up and washed up changed clothes and headed up to Side Lines. Just in case Black Knight and K-Love were on there way already I tried calling them to let them know my status. I got no answer so I assumed they were still in the movies. I ended up getting up at the spot fairly quickly so I walked around a little just doing some window shopping.

Black Knight and K-Love finally called me back and we began talking about the spot and whether or not they had a dress code, cover charge etc…See they were both kind of tired and wavering on coming so Black Knight said he would call me back in a second. So when I got off the phone with him I went into Side Lines, my reason for going in was just to revalidate that there was no cover charge or dress code (see I hadn’t been there in sometime and you know how things change). Well when I walked through the door and looked at the bar my jaw dropped. Who was sitting at the bar but no one other then Native American…DAMN!!!!!

Like a little scared kid I did a double take just to make sure and then immediately walked back out and was heading to my car. It was at this time that Black Knight called me back and said that he and K-Love weren’t going to come through. I told Black Knight what happened and to make a long story short they ended coming down anyway. See Black Knight really didn’t care for Native American because of certain things that he saw in her that I was not able to see (hard to see the forest from the trees…something’s wrong with me) and he was going to be damned if she was going to run me out of my spot.

I told them that I wasn’t going to go in until they got here (which he was disappointed in me for…but that’s another story) so I sat outside for about 30 minutes waiting on them to come. In the meantime I contacted MD Finest and he was like man just come up to my crib and hang out. I would have done this if not for Black Knight already being on his way. In addition, I got a text from one of my friends P-Fine who said she wasn’t hanging out tonight. I sent her a text back saying “Damn, this is a night I need u to come out” and you know what P-Fine sent me a message back saying “If you need me then I’m coming”.

I was happy and sad at that because P-Fine is just another friend that I basically alienated while I was dealing with Native American. Yet at the drop of a dime she came because I said I needed her.

Note: P-Fine has been there for me before…when I had my first knee surgery in July…P-Fine took me to the hospital and was there for me when I woke up from surgery to take me home and run any errands for me….TRUE FRIEND!! And yet I have done her so wrong in the past.

Well Black Knight and K-Love finally got there and they immediately were like let’s roll…See all of us have hung out together before and Native American knows them and they know her. When we walked into the place I didn’t even look over to where Native American was sitting, but Black Knight stared right in her face and he said she wouldn’t look up at him. We sat down at our table near the band and Native American and her friend sat at the Bar.

Since we had been sitting there for sometime and no one was coming to take our drink order, Black Knight said come on Black Hawk we’re going to the bar to order our drinks. I really didn’t want to because I would be right next to Native American.

Well what happened next had to be explained to me because I didn’t really see any of it. K-Love said that when we got up to the bar she saw Native American look over to us then look at her friend and then back at us. Native American then jolted out of the place and left her friend at the bar to pay the bill. I didn’t see any of this but once she was gone it was like a weight had been lifted off of me and I could enjoy the evening like I use to enjoy it pre-Native American.

P-Fine finally showed up and Black Knight and K-Love left out. I gave them both HUGE hugs and told them I owed them big time. Black Knight was like man that’s what boys do for one another. Once P-Fine found out what was going on she told me if she would have known that she would have really got all prettied up and shit (note P-Fine is always looking HOT anyway). P-Fine ordered us a drink and we sat there and enjoyed the music and had a good relaxed time.

I keep thinking that I am over this Native American, but that situation showed that I still have a ways to go. However, I see progress everyday!!